Fun times...not so much

Cloudy Day downed H Sindragosa this past Tuesday – after working on her for three weeks, it was nice to finally get the kill. People finally started actually coordinating and getting stuff done, which was great – on the kill, things went smoothly in P3, which in itself is a feat on Heroic. We followed this kill up with our guild-second H Putricide kill – which, again, was one of those things where we spent a night wiping in stupid ways, and then things just came together on the last attempt. I was so happy to finally see him go down again – it got a lot of guildies the H Plagueworks achievement.

This is really just a roundabout way of getting to the actual point of this blog post, though. I’ve been GM of Cloudy Day for, oh, about three months now – started leading before that, but officially got the GM spot around July 9th or so. I’m pretty burnt out on it, though; having to deal with some people being bad as well as the regular day-to-day drama is not something I’m really cut out for.

Essentially, I took the position out of necessity; our GM at the time had been AFK for the last 4-5 months, and someone needed to step in. As our other officers had either left or had RL stuff come up, I was basically the only person that was already in a leadership position and also had the time required to be a GM – so I took the job rather than letting the guild die. Three months in, though, it’s getting pretty tough for me to keep going.

At the same time, it’s hard for me to give it up – I feel like so far, I’ve been fairly unsuccessful as a GM, and I don’t want to leave without having the opportunity to give something to the guild. I decided the best option would be frost drakes, and those have been going well. If things keep up, we should be getting our first sets of drakes in the next week or so, and should be able to finish off the achievement for most of our top raiders before Cataclysm hits.

After that, though, I really can’t justify being GM any longer. It’s become more of a job than anything else, and that’s tough for me. Maybe it’s because at the moment I’m both GMing and raid leading, and that’s putting quite a stress on me – I don’t know. Either way, though, it’s not too fun anymore.

I figure the best thing to do is finish leading during WotLK, and then transition leadership as the guild heads into Cataclysm and level 85. That way I don’t try and switch leadership while we’re still actively raiding, and also allow the new GM to start taking charge and getting things ready to go before we start raiding again.

This was supposed to be my blog post for recently. Unfortunately, I had a pretty terrible night tonight. Two of my guildies got into a pretty big fight, and I didn’t step in or try and break it up at all. It kind of woke me up to how much of not a GM I really am. I ended up essentially resigning as of tonight, and whoever wants the GM can take it.

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